Am I your dream?

DREAM
Function: noun
Usage: often attributive
Etymology: Middle English dreem, from Old English drEam noise, joy, and Old Norse draumr dream; akin to Old High German troum dream
1 : a series of thoughts, images, or emotions occurring during sleep -- compare REM SLEEP
2 : an experience of waking life having the characteristics of a dream: as a : a visionary creation of the imagination : DAYDREAM b : a state of mind marked by abstraction or release from reality : REVERIE c : an object seen in a dreamlike state : VISION
3 : something notable for its beauty, excellence, or enjoyable quality (the new car is a dream to operate)
4 a : a strongly desired goal or purpose (a dream of becoming president) b : something that fully satisfies a wish : IDEAL (a meal that was a gourmet's dream)

How can the reality of me, with all my faults, ever satisfy you?

Your jeans are unwashed, I am not as strong or skilled as you thought, I forget how to calculate the diameter of a circle, I work, I make mistakes.

I read your derision as a sign of things to come. You too will come to understand that I am not a dream. What then?

I prostrate myself by explaining that I need help. I want understanding, compassion, a metal for my bravery. Instead you take a hammer and declare you could do better with ease. "Sorry if you felt like I diminished your efforts." Where is the connection? The acknowledgement of me?

Is your dream to be hooked to someone who thinks? Who might challenge you? Who doesn’t take everything you say as gospel? When I question events, you sometimes dismiss my recollections without thought. Who says your version of reality is not in fact a dream? Can you prove I am wrong any more than I can prove you wrong? Must I be wrong for you to exist?

How do you know that a dream is something you want?